Welcome to Trippy Monday’s, where I go over 3 things that caught my attention from this past week. Enjoy!
(1) I’ve been talking to a girl for the past four-ish months, and we decided to officially start dating last week. For those that don’t know me like that, this is the first time in my life I’ve ever had a girlfriend. That’s not to say I’ve never wanted one in the past, but this is the first time that another girl and I both agreed that we want to be in a relationship with each other. I can certainly look back and discuss why I think that was the case, but for now, I‘m going to go in a different direction.
Opening myself up to love was one of the biggest lessons I’ve learned throughout my healing process — both giving and receiving love. My relationship with this girl is unlike anything I thought possible. I used to think love was about having butterflies in your stomach and being on your best behavior whenever you were in the presence of them. I always used to change the way I acted in order to try to get someone to like me. I used to think that they needed to love me before I could ever love them. I needed to be better than whoever I was.
My experience with this girl has been completely different so far. I feel comfortable being myself around her. I don’t have to put on an act of any sort. I don’t feel pressure to be perfect or the need to always do or say the right thing. I’m allowed to be human.
Admittedly, I have no idea how long this is going to last. I’m not going to finish this post by saying I’ve found the girl I’m going to be with for the rest of my life. I have no idea what the future holds, I try my best to live in the present. I will say, however, that I know I’ve found someone that I’ll love for the rest of my life. Regardless of what that love looks like, it will always be there, and for that, I’m grateful.
(2) I’ve only done a consistent microdosing protocol once in my life, and that was back when I still lived in Chicago, which feels like ages ago. I was on the Fadiman protocol, which is one day on, and two days off. I’ve learned a lot since then, and microdosing has been calling me, so I decided I’m going to start microdosing again, and today will be the first day. This time, I’m going to do four days on, and three days off, and see how I feel. I’m doing this just for general life improvement to see if I can be more creative and focused throughout my days. I’ll keep everyone posted on how it goes.
(3) I published another piece for Shroomtown, which was a product review for a mushroom cookie. I’m really proud of the work I’m doing over there, so check it out! Beyond that, I’m continually amazed at Sofie, who is the other writer for Shroomtown that actually started it and invited me to join her. If you don’t follow her, I definitely urge you to do so. She’s incredible and inspires me to be a better writer and think differently, and I truly appreciate her for that. Huge shoutout to Sofie, and if you’re reading this I love you.