I’m writing this the morning of my 26th birthday (January 15th) to make sure it comes from the heart and encompasses everything I’m feeling. I’ve typically been the type of person the doesn’t enjoy celebrating their birthday. I’ve always thrown parties and shit in the past, but deep down I was always sad and had the mentality that it was just another year I didn’t accomplish anything or live up to whatever stupid idea I had in my head about what I needed to be beside myself. This year feels wildly different.
I woke up this morning with tears in my eyes. Not sad tears either, these tears were pure love and happiness. The amount of love and gratitude that I feel this year is immeasurable. I’ve got some of my absolute best friends with me celebrating my birthday at a ridiculous Airbnb in Cancun. It’s truly insane how incredible this place is.
This actually all came together because I had this idea that I really wanted to take acid on a beach for my birthday this year, and I needed to find a way to make this cost-effective and bring my friends along for the ride. Thank you guys for indulging me. Today is the day that my birthday wish will come true. If you know me, you k pow I’ll be spending the rest of today with literally the biggest smile on my face.
I’m still having trouble putting into words what I experienced this past year. 25 was the most transformative year of my life and I don’t even think it comes close. So much change and growth have helped me feel more like myself than I ever have. Regardless of how cliche this sounds, if you would’ve told me last year that this is how I would feel and what I would be doing with my life I would’ve told you to go fuck yourself.
This next year is about shedding even more parts of myself that aren’t actually me. I’m stepping farther into my authentic self. I feel younger now than I ever have. My inner child has stepped out with the wisdom of an old man and I feel unstoppable.
I can’t wait to see what this next year has in store. Both the highs and the lows. To everyone that has followed my journey thus far, and to my amazing friends and family that support me and love me, thank you.