After reflecting on the year, I thought it’d be a good idea to look ahead to the new year and talk about what I’m looking forward to.
The way I look to the future now is a lot different from how I used to. I used to get lost in my daydreams constantly. This was because I simply didn’t like where I was at. I didn’t like who I was at that moment in time, so I would dream about what it be like to not be there. I still do this, but not nearly as often. I’m a lot better at catching myself and bringing myself back to the present. Now, I understand what it feels like to love me exactly as I am right now. This makes it a lot easier for me to see clearly and understand what it is that I truly want.
The most tangible thing I’m looking forward to right now is moving to Denver. I decided on this move back toward the end of October and I’ll be making the move sometime in February. Just because I’m moving and excited about it doesn’t mean I’m not sad about leaving Chicago though. I’m sure I’ll write a whole post about this once I get closer to the move.
Beyond the tangible stuff, I’m looking forward to seeing how the blog and podcast grow over the next year. The podcast is only about 3 months old and I’ve already met some fantastic people and gotten some great feedback. I’m excited to see how this progresses. I very purposely don’t give myself goals like trying to get a certain number of downloads per episode because that’s completely out of my control. I believe in consistent effort, so I want to continue to release at least 1 episode per week. That’s it. If I do that, good things will happen.
I’m also in the process of creating another business, so I’m excited to see how that progresses. I’ll write more about that once I officially launch it, but I can’t wait to share this with the world ;).
Most of all, I’m looking forward to seeing how I personally grow over the next year. I don’t have any direction I’m trying to grow in anymore, I’m just going to surrender to the universe and let whatever is supposed to come to me, come to me. I’ve spent my entire life trying to control shit, and all that caused me deep down was pain and suffering. I want to be as aware as possible of my internal state in order to prevent myself from slipping back into those patterns. I’m going to fuck up, but that’s okay. It’s not about looking at progress from a daily perspective, it’s about thinking long-term.
My only true goal for 2023 is to live as presently as possible and enjoy every moment as it happens. I have no idea where I’ll be in a year from now, but wherever it is, I know it’ll be exactly where I’m supposed to be. Hope everyone has an incredible 2023!