I can’t even remember when I last made a whole blog post like this. I just checked my website, and it was a post about doing my 72-hour water fast… 2 months ago.  It almost feels weird writing like this again. Telling a whole story from start to finish. My writing lately has just been my newsletter, which is very short-form writing.

I’ve told myself for at least the last few weeks now that I wanted to get back into longer-form writing again, yet every time I had the opportunity to sit down and do it, I would find some excuse not to. 

It’s not like I haven’t had the time either. My life is pretty void of having to do anything else besides whatever it is I tell myself I want to do. Not going to lie – it’s been pretty sweet. 

Any-who, every time I would sit down and try to write, a litany of issues would come up. I had trouble figuring out what I wanted to write about, I’d write something and then delete it all because it didn’t sound like my voice, I’d tell myself I was hungry and that I obviously couldn’t write until I ate my next meal. Whatever the excuse was, it meant that another day went by without me having anything to show for the work I’d been trying to put into TripSitting.

The only tangible evidence I have to show for what I’ve been doing lately is with the podcast. I’ve published 1 episode every week since I first started it back in October, and I’m actually pretty proud of that. Consistency is key. However, sometimes it still feels like I haven’t done shit. It’s crazy how the mind starts to minimize things – things that were once huge accomplishments to us – into literally nothing once you get used to them. 

I’ve made some tweaks here and there to the podcast, but nothing huge. Because of this, it feels stagnant. But that’s just my perception of it – and that’s literally all it is. I want that next dopamine hit. The next piece of viral content. The next new addition to my repertoire of shit I do with TripSitting. I want more.

It’s funny because I’ve said in the past that I only do this for me – which still reigns mostly true – but I’d be lying if I didn’t also mention that I wanted this to be bigger at the same time. I think I can help people, and I want to be genuine in doing so. Trying to force growth seems to me like the exact opposite. 

We, as humans, don’t grow quickly – it takes time. So why should I expect anything else for the external things I put my time and energy into? No reason at all – I’m just being dramatic. 

What was the whole point of this post even? Oh yeah, writing more.

I titled this post “The Only Way Out is Through” because that’s been a big theme for me lately. I was feeling lost recently, and it wasn’t until I just accepted those feelings and let them be there that they started to dissipate and I started to find my footing again. The same concept rings true for my writing as well.

I’ve been wanting to write more, yet I’ve been struggling to figure out what to write. I’ve had a couple of ideas, but they never excited me enough for me to actually write the whole thing. So this – and by ‘this’ I mean this very post you see before your eyes – is what I’ve settled on. 

This is my voice. This is the shit that’s been going through my mind. This is what I intended TripSitting to be all about. I believe that I can help others by highlighting my own personal experiences with navigating life – and this incredibly unorganized piece of writing highlights that better than anything else I could’ve possibly written at this moment. I’m okay with that. Not only am I okay with it, but I actually kind of love it. It feels authentic.

The point is that you don’t need to wait for the perfect moment or perfect idea to take action. My hope is that writing this will help bring that creative spark back to me, and I eventually will have the motivation to write some of those other thought pieces I tried writing, but couldn’t find the words for. Or maybe it’ll take me in a completely new and different direction. What I do know for sure is that the only moment that matters is still right here and right now, so that will always try to be my main focus.